I tell you with great confidence in my heart, that loosing a family member changes your whole outlook on life. I lost my baby sister July 2007, she had barely turned 23 on July 28th & died the next day. You hold such a strong bond with someone and when it is time for them to go, you are there holding that bond alone...not knowing whom to place it on, allowing those strong feelings to stay on hold in your heart to later turn into complete bitterness on others or religion. I let mine devour me. After weighing 184 after having SERENITY, I allowed Sarah's death to consume me into burning candles, blaming myself, yelling at those that loved me, waving goodbye to my precious family on beautiful Sundays when leaving for church. There was NO WAY...I was going.
Almost 7 months went by I found myself at 104 lbs and finally was inspired to go to church. Sarah would not have wanted me to sit around crying, starving, being rude and rebellious to those here on earth that loved me. The devil tried to win me over. I strongly URGE you to give all your burdens to the Lord. I know after my battle, I gave it to him and since then I have had some successful at home buisnesses, all 3 of my children are dedicated and baptized and I feel like I am fighting to stay here on earth, it is not my time to join her. So when you have a situation, look for the reason it has happend FOR you NOT to you.
If Sarah did not happen for me, I would not be inspiring to those trying to make it through today. By the grace of God, I am alive and doing well. I also started up Power of Prayer website to take it all across the world. GOD does things in wonderous ways in your life. Step outside and take a deep breath, he created it...hug that dear loved one & you can feel in your heart how important they really are, he created them too.
All the joys in your life...he is there. While you are reading this, he allowed you to continue to see...you may feel like asking God for much much more, but if you take some time to see your blessings around you now and the time given unto him, you may feel different. Our faith activates God's power. You must ask him to come into your heart and ANYTHING that you ask of the Lord, he will give. You must have FAITH and KNOW he will bring this to pass. I love my Sarah, and that has got to be the worst I have ever experienced in my life. But I know, she would never trade heaven to come back here.
